Seated in my favorite chair, the one by the glass doors where the sun’s rays shine on it each morning, prayer journal in my lap, I begin to write. I put words to the feelings in my heart, to the One who captures all my tears. The thoughts come quicker than my hand can pen them. The words become increasingly illegible, the words like groans only God could understand.
Then I hear the door bell ring. Packages have begun to arrive for this year’s homeschool. The delivery man places the large box at my door and walks away.
I remember, as a child that you had to sign for a package when it was delivered. These days, they ring the bell and leave, never waiting for a response. I open the door to retrieve the box and start to wave at the gentleman, but he walks briskly back to the truck, with no notice of me.
Isn’t that how I am with my prayers to God? I present them, neatly packaged, labeled properly in the ACTS fashion, and then walk away.
How often do I actually wait for His response?
How often do I just sit in His presence and enjoy being with HIm?
When I don’t just sit in His presence, I miss out on the beauty and wonder of knowing Jesus and the depths of His love for me. I miss out on the limitless fountain of joy that comes from drinking from the pure water He provides. I miss out on Him.
Instead of treating God like a candy machine– inserting my payment of good deeds and waiting for Him to release delectable joy into my waiting hands–what if my heart desired to only be with Him? What if my relationship with Him was about knowing Him instead of about Him blessing me?
Because after all, that is why we were created–to enjoy the same love the Trinity has enjoyed with one another for all eternity. God desires that we partake in that same love, and join in their dance of self-giving, other-serving, sacrificial love. He wants to show us the dance moves, teaching us how to love as He loves.
With the package delivery interrupting my prayers, I sit back down and pause in my writing. Instead, I meditate on this truth: “I am in them and you are in me. May they experience such perfect unity that the world will know that you sent me and that you love them as much as you love me.” John 17:23
Do you need to bask in the joy of just being in His presence?
“More is available to us in Jesus Christ than we dare imagine. There’s more to Jesus Christ than we’ve ever dreamed. We experience so little of Him when we approach Him only with requests. We taste so little of the mouth-stopping, complaint-ending, desire-deepening awe that His presence creates when we think more about our problems and how to solve them than about meeting Him. We experience so little of the joy that sustains us in suffering and the hope that anchors us amid shattered dreams when we come to Him looking for the pathway out of hardships instead of the pathway into His presence.” –from The Pressure’s Off by Larry Crabb
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